如果真想有個英文名，我想，會是
August 吧。
忍不住把這個突發的異想告訴 Jude。
是咯。昨晚又看了【August Rush】。哈，還是有感動到。
為什麼是 Jude？因為他總愛為我取名字。
最新的我叫 Ignatius。也有陣子他叫作 Francis。
【Waiting For The End】Linkin Park，9.38 pm.
一直都想說，很少在部落格提 Jude。
因為？也沒什麼特別好提的。哈。
我們的互動像小孩醬。
不用經大腦的對話，稚氣滿滿。
簡單。或許也單純。
所以不觸動深處。
是刻意的麼？有時我會想。
今天的事，明天就忘記。
開心。但永遠不清楚細節。
簡單的人。簡單的生活。其實最開心？
知足常樂？是哪個最先不想努力的人發明的成語噢？然後後人不斷引用。
成了看不起未來爆發的可能性，的最佳下台階。
誰不曾是階下囚。
你說只是觀點不同？只是角度問題？
我說這是最沒營養的答案。
當然，我也可能只是在胡扯。
厚。自甘示弱。
扯遠了。
But at least u should try to figure out a good way, I mean really good one like d boy uses music to express something deep down inside u...
我什麼也沒跟 Jude 說。自覺我的簡訊也沒有半點一毛的氣息。
但 Jude就是發了這麼一封過來。我的一毛磁場有那麼誇張厚？
至少，現在不算有。有也早已經不像以前那麼容易消沉了。
一整個我沉淪下去。還有一整個我好好盯着。
但無可否認，Jude 偶爾還是打動了我。
沒有刻意想說什麼。只是看着 Jude 的簡訊那刻，我笑得很燦爛很燦爛，
然後想到這首歌。
This is not the end, this is not the beginning
Just a voice like a riot rocking every revision
But you listen through the tone & the violent rhythm and
Though the words sound steady, something empty's within'em
We say yeah with fists flying up in the air
Like we're holding onto something that's invisible there
Cause we're living at the mercy of the pain & fear
Until we dead it, forget it, let it all disappear
Waiting for the end to come
Wishing I had strength to stand
This was not what I had planned
It's out of my control
Flying at the speed of light
Thoughts were spinning in my head
So many things were left unsaid
It's hard to let you go
I know what it takes to move on
I know how it feels to lie
All I want to do is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven't got
Sitting in an empty room
Trying to forget the past
This was never meant to last
I wish it wasn't so
What was left when that fire was gone
I though it felt right, but that right was wrong
All caught up in the eye of the storm
And trying to figure out what it's like moving on
And I don't even know what kind of things I said
My mouth kept moving and my mind went dead
So picking up the pieces now where to begin
The hardest part of ending is starting again
* 是刻意的麼？有時我會想 *
